Shelter.. Not only a roof and temp control, but good tunes and people watching too
Wifi.. Check, and up to speed too
From Walmart J-man and I meandered around the streets in the car while I sufficiently turned us in circles and added stress to our overflowing temper bouquets. The shower at the college was a no-go and my controlling nature mixed with his already grouchy self led us to an immediate fight before we arrived at our destination of Lafayette cemetery #1. The discussion took a turn for the rude, then it got plain mean and tearful (I'm pretty sure they were all on my side as usual) with bouts of silence. Afterward we walked, disgruntled, through the remaining graves as two individuals having decided to leave the relationship behind with the tombs.
Then there was a bit with the bumper hitting the pavement, leaking coolant, a non-nap, a walk to Starbucks, a sit in silence, and an argument about coffee (which I don't even drink). After more silence and tears (the tears are always mine unless otherwise noted) I gazed at the faces and outfits and what I thought were the lives of the people around us, and I sat up, slightly smiling. I would never be the same from this point forward. I would never look at a closet the same, a trunk of a car, a mall.. How much I had changed, even while avidly resisting!
Now the discussion began, at first tensely, about change, about people. I thought I had changed to be unlike the people surrounding us in Starbucks,assuming they all belong as a crowd, but J-man asked if they were really all the same.. Or did they just think that. And if they think they are all the same and I think I am different then what is the difference between thinking we belong here or we all don't, or each of us fits in one moment or stands out the next. "Welcome to duality" says J-man. And all feels calm, and I want him to dj our road trips and navigate and then I lie my head on his shoulder and webboth agree that all is not settled, yet.
Signing off from the Garden District Starbucks
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