Public Library

Today I watched a 3D printer at the library create a bolt for a piano. Yesterday I got up close to a seal at the Smithsonian Zoo. The day before yesterday I examined the bones of dinosaurs, ancient human species, and holocaust victims. We lead a charmed life is what J-man told me the other day, referring to himself and me, and our jobs are to better our psychological state because so many people working other types of jobs for money don't have that opportunity.

J-man and I live in my 01 Honda Civic Sedan. We lie down the back seat to sleep in the trunk at night and then pack up the bed in the trunk during the day. He has food stamps and we both have money saved from previous jobs, but we live a low-demand lifestyle.

The cycle continues: food, shelter, wifi. Does one eventually find a passion or does a trade eventually steal you?

Ocean City

Have you ever heard of a Young Adult series called Ocean City or Making Waves by Katherine Applegate? It's about a group of people right before they hit college spending their last summer in Ocean City, Maryland. There's Kate and her best friend Chelsea and they run into Kate's ex boyfriend, Conner, and immigrant from Ireland, and other characters as well. After reading this series and dreaming of visiting the place for real (the character are fictitious) I am now sitting down after walking up and down the beach over 15 miles with J-man. Killed it.

 McDoubles, ice cream, comfy chairs, and wifi.

Coffee Buzz

Last night I delivered J-man and myself the rest of the way (after he'd tapped out from an entire day of driving) to a Fairfield Inn where we slept comfortably in our car and then shared a continental breakfast with the rest of the guests. We are now in Savannah, GA catching some food, shelter, and wifi at The Sentient Bean. Next stop will most likely be North Carolina to stay the night with J-man's mom, and then it will be D.C. by this time tomorrow. My recap makes everything feel so swift and sure, yet as I experience it I feel soft and empty at times like a dry sponge. All I can do it sit in J-man's hand and absorb as he leads me, and later I process, and eventually relax, relent to today, and enjoy. Will I ever catch up with the moment?

Cuban Coffee Queen

J-man and I come here almost every morning so that he may purchase a hot cup of deep roasted cuban coffee con leche. We place the car in the rocks among the stray chickens to sip the hot beverage and indulge in the free wifi. Our adventures so far have taken us to the top of a lighthouse, coral beaches, the southernmost point, rooftops, old barracks, outside the Hemingway House, street shows, sunsets, and sunrises. We've had coconuts every day, sucked the nectar from flowers, cracked open almonds, chewed on coco plums and sugar cane, and I've even tried some unidentified and disturbing bumpy fruits. I've also peed into the ocean and subsequently dropped my phone forever into its grasp. While living a life by my own terms is exciting and lovely and I'm happier than I've ever been it's not all flowers and sunshine, there are sunburns and tears too. There are those times when every thought I have feels like it's part of an ultimate to do list and I cannot let go of anything crossing my mind. There are moments when I'm still trying to win the approval of my parents. There is the future, which paths to take, the near and the following.. There's communicating with another human that's decided to share their life with me, that I've decided to share mine with as well. The best things is the growth, the learning, the experience, the surprises, the people, the twists, and the strength gained.. Independently and as a partnership.

I'm On a Key

Key West of The Florida Keys at the public library to be specific

Food.. Does maté count?

Shelter.. A place to sit on the front steps

Wifi.. Library is a guarantee 

Faire days are over (for J-man and me) and now we are back in the car and and on the streets of the Keys. 

J-man quit his position and it wasn't taken well by some, so he was told to leave and I chose to as well. Some choice words were said to me that made me realise how easy it is to follow, to slip into a pattern, even if it feels like a liberated situation. What felt and appeared to be a branch off of social norm was a mere copy of structure in a different looking form. Same problems, social topics, addictions, habits, but in a personally attractive skin seems less harmful.. Feeling unhappiness or saying no to a command from someone is a clue that somethings wrong, but when things look so different... Why.. Constant vigilance. J-man is very admirable for always pushing this and also abiding by it. That's where I'm at right now in my processing, but I've got more fog still.

My focus now is to realise that every day doesn't have to have an overreaching goal, and I'm maybe learning how to relax? To go with whatever is happening. I'm not sure I've formed any goals yet.